Tagged: the TMS journey
April 13, 2019 at 10:26 am #34149
I just finished treatment 11, and with the exception of one treatment that was painful early on and a tiny bit of anxiety after another treatment all have been good. No after effects, no headache, no site soreness. I wanted to begin this new post because early on I was scared and mainly found scarier reports on this forum. How do I feel after 11 treatments? I feel more energized, I feel hopeful and I am looking forward to what my remaining treatments will reveal. Of course I hope that I will only continue to experience positive outcomes, but I am aware there could be major issues such as those discussed here on this forum that could strike at anytime. I understand that the brain is very complex and powerful and that we have very little knowledge of its workings. So in reality things could go awry at any time but the possibility of achieving improved function is worth the journey of TMS in my opinion. To all who are suffering from TMS treatments I wish you improvement. To those contemplating TMS I say try it. I will continue to report my outcomes to add my experiences to others here on the forum to help in the understanding of TMS therapy process.April 13, 2019 at 3:26 pm #34150
I am happy for you! I suffered depression for at least 50 years and did TMS. My relief was not as quick as yours, but nonetheless, I am “cured”. I also discovered improved memory that I thought was gone due to a head injury a few years ago. Doctors had told me the brain had healed as well as it could and the short term memory was impaired. I was terrified to go off medication after being on the same meds for over 20 years. I discovered that I would miss a day or two and finally looked at my pull box to see that it had been over a week! My sister is suffering depression and I recommended it to her. I found this site later and am afraid to recommend now. I wish you all the best! I had anxiety but no sore site! Keep us up to date on your progress. For those who are not getting the benefits this site is a great help as I see people sharing other remedies such as acupuncture and meditation. It is a relief to know that all these years I was told to “change”, “be happy like everyone else” and I carried such shame for not being happy! That there was a reason – and it was not “just me being a bad person”. Very validating!April 13, 2019 at 4:59 pm #34151
Sunnybrook- here’s to your success! How long ago did you finish your treatments? Did you continue to see improvements in the few months after treatments were over? And finally, are you off the medications now? That is a goal of mine to either reduce or get rid of completely the medications I am on. Thank you for your response.April 14, 2019 at 12:24 am #34152
@sunnybrook did you receive bilateral treatment or only left-sided? I’m on #30 and although increased functioning, I only had increased memory at the start. I’ve had some good days, but those damn suicidal thoughts keep coming back in. It’s a very frustrating process when you want to be back to who you were so desperately! They are doing bi-lateral since I’m so lucky to have suicidal anxiety & depression occur at the same time. I’m on Valium for 5 months, but hate it with a passion. Hope this works. At least crying had stopped this week, but definitely not happy.April 21, 2019 at 11:39 pm #34184
I have had a few depressing days, I suppose I am experiencing “the dip”. Just a general feeling of being down, no motivation, anxiety and sleep disturbances. I am looking forward to getting back to treatments tomorrow, have been off them 3 days (the office was closed for Good Friday). I will start on treatment 16 tomorrow, hoping for some real relief soon, so tired of feeling down. I know you can all relate to that statement.April 30, 2019 at 9:15 pm #34205
@deb How’s it going for you? I just finished my 36, I’d say I’m better than I was at the start, but not back to who I was. They are adding another 5 weeks 2X per week to get me closer to better. I’m hoping this can get me off my nightly Valium dose of 10mg, that’s not helping my depression or memory issues. We’ll see. I’m seeing some hope, doing more with my kids, I start an art project with a friend tomorrow, but I’m not able to work yet. I was a registered dietitian & loved that. I hope you are getting some relief soon!April 30, 2019 at 11:57 pm #34206
Junebeatle- I am hanging in there, have had a few good days that I felt some energy but I am still waiting for a bigger impact, hope I start feeling it soon on treatment number 22 today. I am hopeful. I hope your continued treatment does the trick for you.May 6, 2019 at 12:36 pm #34213
On treatment # 26 today I am entering my final full time week of treatments. I have been up and down during this journey. The down times have been rough, doubting the TMS treatment for me. BUT I have had days of what I call a lift that seems to last the entire day. I have had a few days of the lift feeling now and I can only hope it stays with me. The lift days have been preceded by a lot of dreaming, not sure what this might mean, I am thinking that my brain is possibly working when I have the dreams and that is causing the lift. We shall see what this final week brings. It’s scary to begin my final week because if I go back to feeling depressed after all this I will be sad. I am not sure if I would be offered another round of TMS if depression returns or if I would even do another round. This treatment has been a journey and it takes a lot out of you as you all are very aware of.May 8, 2019 at 9:30 pm #34216
Treatment # 28….still feeling the lift since last Thursday, tomorrow will be a full week 🙂 I start my tapering next week. I am hoping this feeling lasts.May 9, 2019 at 4:59 pm #34220
@deb I’m so glad you’re feeling better. I’m better too, not as good as I was hoping with clarity of thought & memory, but I’m attributing some of this to my nightly Valium usage. This might be too personal, but I think I remember in one of your posts you also take anti-anxiety medication. You were able to get complete relief even with a benzodiazepines? I know these cause worsening depression although with my level of anxiety waking me up nightly I had no choice. It’s certainly improved my life compared to the awful anti-depressants.May 9, 2019 at 9:10 pm #34221
-Junebeatle, I do occasionally take Lorazepam for anxiety and haven’t found it to effect my outcome with TMS. I still have lingering issues with memory but I am thinking that may come from the antidepressants. My next step is to wean off of the antidepressants if possible.May 9, 2019 at 9:21 pm #34222
@deb Awesome! I’m glad to hear it didn’t impact your results. I still have 7 treatments to continue to improve. I was able to attend a CEU for my RD renewal license today & pay attention. I was hoping to be well enough to return to part-time work at least. I’m not crying all day everyday & having constant suicidal thoughts repeatedly so that’s a big win! Hope you have continued success 🌈August 25, 2019 at 7:50 pm #34321
@deb, How’d it end up for you? I got out of depression after 46 treatments. Lasted 8 weeks, then needed weekly boosters. My doctor wants me to do another 36 covered by insurance & said it should last longer this time. Hope it worked well for you.August 26, 2019 at 10:06 am #34322
I am still holding onto the benefits of my treatment. I have a few down days here and there but that’s just normal life.
I reduced my antidepressants from 60 mg daily to 20 mg and feel fine with lower dosage. I also have now quit taking Abilify which was a add on to boost the antidepressant. I continue to go to regular talk therapy appointments and find that they help sort out feelings. I haven’t had the need for additional TMS treatments yet, but comforting to know they are there if I do need them. I am glad I had TMS treatments, they really did make a difference in my quality of life. Thanks for following up on me and I hope for the best for you .junebeatle.
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