Profile for User: Denaqueenbee

The effectiveness summary was so interesting, that was a great thing to do! I am listed under denaqueenbee, rated 2/5, but I’d now have to say it’s, 1/5. Things have been so much worse since the treatment, but I know it’s all individual based, so I am not blaming TMS. But…. What is so interesting, why did it gave me almost instant relief from severe pain in my hands, a return of severe carpal tunnel, or other nerve damage? The entire time I was getting treatment it was almost gone! After treatments done, when I realized TMS didn’t help the severe depression and anxiety, I thought at least I got help with the pain in hands. (It has to be nerve pain because no amount of pain med will help it, and I was desperate about that problem on top of depression.) HOWEVER, that was short lived, about 7 weeks after treatment ended, the hand pain returned with a vengeance, only to keep getting worse and worse since November 2016. For first time in my life, I know I’ll not be able to continue working, and I am scared to death, (60 yrs old) I am still forcing myself to work in agony while I get testing done ordered by hand surgeon, but I fear it’s causing more damage to force it, I’m on keyboard all day long. But fear keeps me from doing what I should do, NOT WORK until we know what to do after final test next week. I fear if I call in or leave due to hand pain, my employer will know I’m headed toward disability, as we are in severe shortage of staff. He knows I have the problem but thinks TMS helped. Unless I’m wrong, I figure until a doctor orders me not to be on keyboard all day, I might risk being able access my Long Term Disability, 3 month waiting period. I have no idea what to do, the depression is so bad I’m can’t function, no medication helps. I gave up on med before TMS, sick of them all, nothing worked, but as Last resort in December, I did try an MAOI, Parnate, but it dropped blood pressure really bad for days, so I couldn’t take it. I’m just giving my experience for others that might need the extra info, especially about the help with pain!

Bless each of you!

Dear Leveon, I hesitated before responding to your post because I can’t give the positive feedback I know you need. However, I think we all need to share no matter what our experience was with TMS. We are all different, the more people getting the treatment and posting their individual outcomes, the more we know. I never really saw negative comments until after I had started treatment, I’m glad because I needed to try it, I stayed off the forum for a couple weeks at that time.

For myself and TMS: I was so, so excited when I finally made the commitment and started TMS. I never had such peace and a feeling no doubt I was to try it, almost a supernatural expectation that it was going to be my miracle. Everything sort of fell into place as I have to work at the same time, and taking time during the day is horrible, (if you call it work, basically I’m faking it all day pretending I’m something I”m not and that doesn’t make me feel very good about myself) . I even had peace about spending the 6k I couldn’t afford to spend, so I just KNEW THIS WAS MY MIRACLE! (

My doctor has referred me to TMS 2 years prior but no one would accept insurance to help with cost, so I had been researching and noticing there were more people having good results. After starting TMS, I made an appointment with this doctor letting him know I finally did it, and wondered what others were telling him of their experiences with TMS. Oh dear, this is when he told me he had never had a patient go through TMS? HE REFERRED ME TO GO BUT NEVER HAD ANOTHER PATIENT USE TMS? What the heck?

Anyway, I gave it 110%, never missed a session, positive attitude, we did both sides of the brain due to the severe anxiety, but it didn’t work for me. I was so crushed. I do think you will feel a wild ride of emotions, and I knew it was possible that it wouldn’t work, but I didn’t know it could make things worse, which is seems to have done.

Each of us will respond differently, but it appears my thinking was left with some short term memory issues which seems to be getting better, but something has changed and I’m worried. When I type at work, I find myself leaving letters off simple words, which is not something I ever did, but I kept praying I’d get the delayed positive reaction as some do. It’s now been about 2 months now since I finished, and the depression is worse than I’ve ever felt in my life, but it could be due to failure after such hope, but something doesn’t seem right?

Reality check, now I’m now really concerned since my employer knew I was going for TMS ( leaving daily you have to tell them something), last week I was passed over as a senior employee for responsibilities taking over from my manager after his sudden departure last week. It went to my co worker who has been here less time than I, and I don’t blame them. It’s obvious I have trouble with organization, productivity, but it was like a reality slap in the face. Now I fear I need to get back to a doctor quickly to document how bad things are in case things are falling apart here as they appear to be, as there is no way I can get another job feeling as bad as I do physically and mentally, at 60 years of age. (TMS helped amazingly with pain in my hands, nerve damage. But just last week, the pain suddenly returned)
Leveon, I hope you have an awesome response to TMS, as SO many people do! Do not give up, just expect the wild emotions are going to happen and it won’t be as scary, it should level out. Please keep everyone posted! Who knows, maybe I’ll even have a turn around myself nothing is impossible……….
Dena

Hi Dee, I too, am 60 now and tried TMS and so far have not gotten the response I prayed for. What the heck could be so wrong it doesn’t work for us? Therapy? Maybe for some, but most of us know what we should be thinking, and we just can’t, when I go, the therapist is as stressed as I am because there are no answers!

I know we’ve all tried so many things before TMS, so it’s not like we’re new at this. I’m wondering if you get results AFTER TMS, I hear it can happen within a few weeks, and I’m praying things change for me too, I’ve been done for 2 weeks now? I feel mean, and that is a new feeling for me, so I’m worried I’ll feel mean the rest of my life. LOL. If it wasn’t so awful maybe it would be funny. I wondered how you were doing?

Dena

I think we ALL are terrified when going through TMS, that we will be the one it doesn’t work for. We don’t want to be fearful, at least for me, because thinking the fear may cause the treatment not to work. By the time we get to trying TMS, we are pretty desperate, and it’s only natural to feel the fear and dread of what to do if it doesn’t work. I fought it the entire time.

Most people I had contact with said the same thing. I just finished treatment, and though I didn’t get the response I hoped for, I am hearing from many places and people, it isn’t until after TMS is done that changes happen. I had a call yesterday from a TMS place I was trying to get approved through but ended up using someone else. They were calling to follow up, and I mentioned this to her, that I was done, but upset as it didn’t seem to work. I mentioned I was still trying to hold on to hope for delayed response, and she told me many, many of their patients had this same delayed reaction. So, don’t give up, even if you don’t feel it’s working as you go through the process.

I think the TMS must be doing something still because my emotions are all over the place , so I’m praying things are changing and eventually will settle down and I have positive outcome. If not, at least I tried.

Dena

Hi Sevn Sevn………… I wondered how you are doing after your TMS. I am just finishing, and praying I am one of those that gets results after TMS stops because I actually feel worse. I had trouble with focus before, but now I feel like my brain is shutting down, and I’m scared. I never thought it could back fire. Of course, I am now 60, and I have been severely depressed with extreme anxiety since I was a child, and awful chronic pain for 16 years, it may take more time, my biggest fear is I can’t be helped, and I don’t know how I can live like this. I want so badly to know what it’s like to feel alive before my life is over.

I happened to see your post and wondered how it all turned out for you?

Hi Seraphita, I am in smack dab in the middle of TMS Treatments, and they finally worked it out with my insurance to cover Part of it, but I still coughed up close to 6k at the beginning. Ouch. It was scary, I couldn’t afford it, but I was ready to try anything. I have to work everyday, and I can’t stand it, but thank God, I am able to do the treatments by taking a longer lunch hour, the place is only 10 minutes away. I had been researching TMS for a long time, and was seeing mainly positive reports, it is only JUST recently I’m seeing these negative reports, which of course is making those horrid thoughts: “what if I’m one of the ones it doesn’t help feeling” 10 times worse.

The final straw for me to spend the money: I recently realized I had to do something, ANYTHING, or I’d be facing the biggest fear of my life, which is letting an aging parent down when they need me. The fear of how I couldn’t handle that and what it might lead to, scared me. I had hoped I’d be able to pull myself together when I was needed, but I realized I was wrong, really wrong, with my father’s recent passing. I couldn’t function to handle much of anything, and I saw what his wife had to deal with, and knew I couldn’t have done it. I was able to act and did manage to be supportive, but I was ready to collapse, call it quits, when the Lord stepped in and took Dad on home. But I am now the ONLY one my wonderful mother would have to rely on, as well as Dad’s Widow, and I can barely make it through a day. Mom is now 81, lives an hour away but still the most active person I know, who takes care of her home, and all problems of life on her own and is even my support system. I know things can change and will, and I don’t have a clue what the heck I’m going to do. I go stay the night on weekend, come home 10pm Sunday night to start the misery work week again…ugh . (it takes me all day to get out of bed and drive up there though) So, the thought of not being able to function when she needs my help, pushed me to fork out the money and pray with every ounce of energy I can muster up that this will work for me. It’s the biggest step of FAITH I have ever taken in my life. I still have hope for a good report in the end. I wondered if you were ever able to try TMS? I’m so sorry about the money, it’s terrible the Insurance doesn’t cover it fully. Our medical system is a disgusting mess……… I’m sorry, I did not mean to write so much.
Dena