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Colleen

You are AMAZING to put yourself out there for a stranger. I think I’m past the dip or whatever insane anxiety ridden roller coaster I was on.
After receiving 4 treatments now to 4 areas, my anxiety has calmed down a GREAT deal.
I can at least function again.

My depression is still with me but I actually feel an ease up from that as well.

I’m shocked if this is the TMS working already, especially after what appreasred to be a huge dip but not for that long.
I find it hard to trust this slight lift but I’m taking it day by day.. sometimes minute by minute.
I pray this is the TMS working for me.

I don’t think I need a call and will hold off in case I get bad again and near an empathetic ear.

I’m so grateful for you and this forum to help me through this treatment.
For tonight, I have high hopes.

Colleen,

So much gratitude for sharing your story.. this gives me hope. I think I am in the dip.. my anxiety is through the roof, scattered obsessive thinking, heart pounding and a much worse depression which is shocking because I didn’t think it could get worse!
I just want to not be here but because of my children, that is not an option and I’m TERRIFIED that I am doomed to live this hell forever.
Unfortunately my doctor and team seem like they don’t really understand the dip and suggested I stay off of forums.
It is the Neurostar machine and he did add three more sights of treatment that he said should help with the anxiety and the physical sensation of depression like that gut punched feeling in my stomache I have all the time.
Your description of feeling like you were going crazy is spot on! I’ve never felt more unstable in my life and I’ve lost 5 out of my 6 brothers. I didn’t think I could feel worse than after those deaths, but I do.
At this point I’m continuing on with blind faith hoping the sights the doctor added will help my situation. Normally I ask a lot of questions and am very involved in my healthcare but now I don’t even care anymore. I have to trust he knows what he’s doing . You and they have reassured me that TMS can not hurt me or make me worse long term so I pray that’s the case with me. I have extreme insomnia too.
I’m desperate for TMS to work and feel like you did about wanting to quit but I’m determined to see it through.
I have zero appetite but am trying hard to eat healthy and am forcing myself to yoga a couple of times a week and am listening to a lot of guided meditation and positive podcasts.
I even started with a new therapist today.
I’m doing all I can to feel better.
Again, I guess I’m in the dip. And it’s terrifying.
I’m so sorry if my thoughts are all over the place. Normally I can write eloquently .. I can think properly right now .
When did you notice an improvement with your dip? With the depression? Did your anxiety go away?
Is there a specific site I should suggest to my doctor to help with this dip?
Thank you thank you thank you for your help Colleen. You are truly an angel

colleen

Thank you so much for your reply.
Another extremely difficult black day. I really look forward to you sharing your experience with me as I feel so alone and crazy in this process

Blessings,

g