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    i’m 17 and have been depressed for 6 years now with DSPD and anxiety. I have horrible fatigue and had to leave school because i can’t function throughout the day. I did 36 sessions of TMS starting around early december/late november and finished january. when i got into the car after my first session, i was able to look outside at the trees and cars and my head didn’t hurt. I immediately started sobbing because i haven’t felt that way since i was 11 years old. I saw that glimmer of hope for one day, and then it was gone. I hit the dip period about 2 weeks in and it lasted til week 5. I had no warning of this because apparently there’s been no study on it so the technician didn’t mention it, so i just thought my world was ending. Things got better week 6, but by better i mean i was a little better than normal. By my last session i was completely back to where i was before. i started at a 28 and ended at a 28. Theres a psychiatrist that they bring in at the place i go to, and he told me that he’s been doing this for 12 years and it looks like i need another 36 sessions and then i’ll feel better. it took 2 months for insurance to approve since i’m a minor, but they finally did. i’m on session 3 now and still feel 2 inches from rock bottom. i’m hoping there’s someone in this group that had something similar and another 36 sessions cured them. i’m young and should be enjoying life, but i’m not living. i’m simply surviving until i can start functioning again. if anyone has any advice or success stories, i could really use them right now. i need some hope to hold onto.

    #34011

    little_piggy
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    Hey! I made an account just so I could respond to this. I’m sitting in the chair right now as I type this. I am on my 32 treatment today. I feel like we are going through something kind of similar and maybe we can help each other and keep each other updated on our progress. I am 25 years old and feel so similar to you!! We are young and want to enjoy life and not just be living but feel truly alive! It’s so frustrating when nothing seems to work. I am almost finished my treatment and around the middle of it, I felt something again like when I was a child. It got a little but brighter and I felt a little bit lighter. And then it all disappeared. I wanted TMS to work so badly. I told the techs about my concerns from the start and when I got around to treatment 28 they suggested that I try dTMS. So it’s the same thing as TMS but it goes deeper into the brain and is a little more intense. The machine is called Brainsway. Maybe you could ask your doctor about this? It may work better for you since you did see a slight benefit from TMS. I should be starting (hopefully if insurance all works out) around mid April. I will keep you updated if this is something that interest you and you may want to try.

    #34012

    yes that’s how i felt throughout my initial treatment! it sucks being so young and wanting so badly to be able to do the things your friends are doing but not being able to fit in just right. i’ve read some horror stories about brainsway and their success rate is a lot lower than neurostar. i’m hoping this next 36 sessions cures me. the psychiatrist they have at my place has been working on TMS for 12 years and is using it to cure alheimerzers and migraines and he said 70% of people that do neurostar TMS feel relief after 36 sessions, and of those that it didn’t help that do another 36 sessions, 70% of them feel relief. im not 100% sure where he got those stats but he’s really knowledgeable about TMS so i’m hoping it’s true. i hope in your last few sessions it works completely and your depression goes away because i know how much it sucks! what i say is “if not this, then something else” meaning if this doesn’t work something else will.

    #34305

    leavesandpetals
    Participant

    Hi. I’m new here and although I haven’t finished my first round (I had #18 today) I am already bracing myself for a second round since I’m not feeling better. I had 3 days the first week where I DEFINITELY felt an improvement. I had a bad weekend, and the depression returned and hasn’t abated again. I am 66 years old, have dealt with depression all of my life treated with medications that didn’t seem to work, or I became tolerant to. I dread thinking that this is it, this is how I’ll spend the rest of the days I have left. I’m terrified this won’t work… and I don’t have any money. So if insurance doesn’t cover the treatments, I’m out of hope.
    I’ve said an awful lot to ask how many have had a failed first attempt become a successful second round of treatments. I’m looking for hope at all costs!
    Thank you for your responses.

    #34308

    junebeatle
    Participant

    @leavesandpetals, I didn’t have mine work until 36 through 46. My psychiatrist saw some improvement so was able to get 10 additional treatments added, which finally worked. I will add that after 8 weeks I had to go back in for additional boosters. Maybe you just need more on the first round.

    I’m planning on doing a second round to see if I can go further between treatments. Good luck! Keep in mind there are other treatments on the horizon, like Psylocibin or possibly look into Ketamine if this isn’t your ticket out of hell.

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