Profile for User: DesertDao

I have had 27 treatments and not only do I not feel any better but I feel worse. Started feeling worse about 12 treatments in. Experiencing a much heightened desire to isolate, not talkative at all and feel the need to avoid all conversation, my emotions feel completely flatlined, nothing brings me any joy at all…nothing, not even the things that used to. My friends and co-workers are all very concerned and have been commenting that I seem to be sliding downhill. I started TMS after the buproprion I had taken for 7 years completely stopped working. That was the 8th antidepressant I have been on and the only one that gave me any relief from the severe depression and daily suicidal thoughts I’ve experienced since I was 12. I started TMS five months after I stopped taking the buproprion. I’m 55 now and scared and so sad that the TMS therapy is not just not working but making me feel worse. I am a social worker and work with the chronically homeless and do HIV testing and education. “Being up” for work and my clients is exhausting me and i feel at the end of my rope and out of choices and out of hope.