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Yes, they did slowly increase the power. In fact, they told me that they were increasing it more slowly than other patients, because I was not handling it well. Eventually it got so bad I told them I could not continue, so they decided to remap. After the remapping, it was marginally better, for about a day. Then it got bad again. After a few more days with no increase (I was told I was about at 80%) it was still so painful I asked to stop and cried for ten minutes before I could explain how bad it was. It is like lightning is going through my brain every 20 seconds. I have what I call an anti-Pavlovian response to the sound the machine makes before the pulse starts, because I know that shit mean pain. According to my doc, my response is abnormal, but I attempted to tell them how much pain I was in during the first few days, and they ignored me and said it was normal. My pain is clearly not normal, and people who administer this should know that some people can’t tolerate TMS and prescribe other options. My doctor doesn’t get paid if he recommends ECT or Ketamine, so he hasn’t done that despite that being the obvious course via my research. I feel like I can’t trust my doctor anymore.